>w>~

jon got a wedding ring catalog somewhere the other day and sat me down on the couch a bit ago and discussed witth me what kind of styles i like

=w=  ♥

heeheeee





thatt is all.

sorry o he people i haven b een repling o myyy keborad has been having serious malfuncions b eyyyoned he previously stated. :(
so i havent been posting really in any forums or anything


not to mention my entire work we ek got completely fucked up and i dont even want to talk about how thats fucking everything over.


but on the lighter not.. *attmpts to control the rofls ensuing*
I was working at the mukulteo store just a few miles from my house and a man came into buy some meat. he looked odddddly familiar.. and he was X' D he was jessie jones! for those of you who dont know hes a local head news guy for King 5 news who has his own segmen called 'ge jesse' for getting even witth people who have screwed over other people XD jon and i cant stand him and find him comedic in his little 'saying.. "king 5 news.. jessee jones" all so dramatically and yea this his him haha. tbh hes actually pretty decent dude irl.. nice, talkative casual and funny and a frequent at that store and buddy buddy with the other jesse who works there. they talked about boxing for a while. So i had my picture taken withi him just for proof to jon XD 
      
hahaha...
i have an affinity for meating bigger news folk like bill wixey and his flamin shirt at the baseball game XD that boy was on fire. he was there with whaat i could only assume where his miserable wife and kids. hes a news anchor for q13fox news
among others
i wnat to meet parella ella ella XD the weather lady next


over and out

oh and i have no idea how to use tumblr ;____;
how do i quote other peoples images?

 
i made crepes for jon this morning. fresh hand made crepes and fresh cut fruitt and berries and whipping cream. he was delittfully suprised :] 
i like doing things for him. i dont think people do enough small sweettt thhings in their relationships for their partners. ♥
i have the day off so i figured why not?



let me elaborat on what i said yesterday. (and btw my 'y' and 't' and delete button arent working much so if it takes me a while to reply and or i have lots of typos forgive me)
i dont hate all koreans.. i dont even hate koreans. i dont dislike them anymore than i dislike people who shop at ambercrombie, or republicans. It just so happens that the majority of the people i run into that fit into those categories i listed are either mean, lame, or cose minded. you see? Im sure everyone feels that way aboutt some group of people. while on the conraryy ive met plentty of kind koreans, awesome abercrombie shoppers and open minded repubicans.
tbh im not racist against koreans, im irritated with their racism with me. and i guess this is geared toward people who are korean and old enough to be a parent. just as blacks are annoyed with older white me(and women) treating htem like they are 'niggers' and no people.. and heres one some lolitas will get, just as westerners are irritated with the way they are treated in the areas where the are called 'gaijin'... i am irritated that i am treated like a mexican immegrant worker is treated by his rich white right winged boss ttreats him. he doesnt mind using his serveses and and  having him do hings for him but he treats him like shit. Does that make since to anyone? Im just sick of being treated like subhuman garbage by every older korean i meet
which is sad cause you all are so cute and i love hte way you dress and talk and your culture is so interestting..."/ cantt you just be respectful to me?

I want a wig like this but without hte pink.. and maybe in brown or b lack but blond is cool. her hair is so cute!♥

I lost some how all my good japanese wig sites that were in my favourites ;_; boo.
i just want a long (just below shoulders to just below breast length) wig with bangs and some curls or waves.

;_; my hands are on FIRE
lately work has just taken a toll on them. Theyre cracked and look like i stuck my hands in white powder and ive got tiny little cuts everywhere nad a gash under my right index and middle finger and most of my nails have broken down past where they are supposed to so my fingertips are all raw. not to mention today i was fixing a cart and i had the cart lifted and my hand stuck inbetween the metal end and the metal wheel tip and dropped all 200lbs of metal pinching the skin of my palm between the nasty old metal T____T i have a hardcore bruise that i can FEEL like its raised and it may be small but fuck does it hurt. its hard to bruise you palm especially so bad.



*caution racism* not really but hay.
im sorry i have some korean friends and i dont mean anything mean towards you cause you are sweet people *you friends in particular* But WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU(the race as a collective whole) i dont get  it. japanese chinese vietnamese ... theyre all fairly kind and inviting...but koreans they just have a tendancy to be so mean ;~; i dont understand. Now ive spent a lot of time with just koreans personally. i helped rebuild and make a korean church and even attended the day long ordeal they do each sunday for a long time.. in jr high i had mostly korean friends and a korean boyfriend and i have a korean neighbor and their family lives here and looooots of koreans shop at my store and ive shopped mainly at korean stores for most of my time in federal way...so im not just pulling this out of my ass.
but koreans(not all but from but i have been getting delt it seems like most) are just so rude and pushy and self centered. every one ive had to deal with in the past year has been nothing but mean and short with me and loud. theyve all been pushy and demanding and wanting unreasonable things while  being complete hypocrites and thinking that everything revolves around them. and my neighbor is not helping this at all. hes just as bad as well as his family. bothering us while we are trying to do stuff. being really loud, speaking to us as if he has authority over us(the men do this so much D: its so fucking annoying) and oh god.. their house... it smells so bad i have to keep my windows closed. i dont know what they were cooking they other day but i literally gagged it was even worse than the norman stench wich is just constant coming out of their house.. i had to shut hte windows and spray our house for FOUR HOURS to get it to be reasonable. None of them give a shit about anyone or what anyone feels or is doing.. they have no consideration or respect for anyone and expect you to gravel at their feet..not to mention their so like enamered with their own race like their race is the super race or something and that everyone not-korean is subhuman.  i mean im down with keeping your culture and im down with everyone coming here..america is a melting pot.. but you have to mix a little bit and be kind and welcoming to the people in the c ountry you are moving to. fuck if you hate americans so much dont fuckign live here and use our land and open stores and get all bent out of shape and rude when we give you our hard earnd cash and buy your goods and services
fuck
i dont  mean to sound racist. there are plenty of koreans that i love and adore...
but christ it just seems like lately you all as a whole have been sucking so hard.. whats wrong with you.. i dont get it D:?


and sincee were on the topic.. plz 2 b not speakin to me in your native language.  im sorry  but i went to shite schools and i live in america.. i only speak and understand english.. i mean understand a little spanish here and there.. a little german and so forth b ut i dont actually speak it or really understand it. it fucking irritates me cause people come in to the store asking me shit in like spanish and other various off the wall languages and im like 'CHRIST! DO I LOOK FORIEGN TO YOU?' im so pale i make paper look grey.. i have a huge shnaz and what not. i dont get what youre saying. and its not like these people dont know english cause im always like 'i dont understand what youre saying' then theyll repeat and ill say the same thing again and then theyre like '...OHHHHH... *says in english*' like seriosuly.. why would you do that? if i go to mexico on vacation or something you better bet im not going to walk into a store fully knowing spanish and ask people for something in english. its just lame and rude.

uhhhhhg
/bitchrant

anyhoot i know for sure ive decided im going to get a corsette from that store in seattle (anyone remember specifically where its at ? its near the waterfront i think and.. uhh it has the name doll or dollz in it) i cant wait!! I also want to buy a b rand jsk, a blouse, and enamel teaparty replicas in red or black depending on the dress i buy... i just havent figured out what dress i want yet ;___;

im also thinking about trying to get these dresses



grrrr so many choices..

i dont know what i want to buy with my monies yet
im supposedto buy lolita stuff but i dont know what i want T_T
im probably going to just find an old dress ony!japan or comm_sales or something
but i was entertaining the idea of a new item.. yay.. nay?
socks,jsk,blouse,wrist cuffs=angelic pretty..
wig=ebay 
unseen kneehigh black boots i own
and a made up headbow

im kinda diggin this dress too.. same coordination roughly. .. 

i know XD its btssb ... youre all like WHHAAAT? me too but i acutally think its cute.. baby can do good by me on occasion. but most of their stuff just uggggg is completely unimpressive.
im also considering

im not sure if i like the red or black more

im not sure what colour i like in this either ;_; i loooove the mint but i dont know if id wear it or even look good in it. and i like the black cause its really bold and solid.. but i like red in general.. oh the woe.
eh time for 3 weeks of long scowering of the internet.
i have no idea what i want and i have such horrible luck with Y!japan T_T

woot i am such a fucking ninja
i was wrapping meat all fast and i caught a fucking fly inside of the package while it was flying.. by accident cause i was spacing off X'D of course i had to throw away the meat.. but it was cool
oh and in the cooler flies are totally all like.. not able to fly because its so cold so they just have to walk everywhere but they can fly when you get them in the warm XD it is awesome

we also found a red pepper slice that had fallen by the glass in the service case from a kabob and it had gotten old and folded and it looked JUST LIKE a cut off thumb *____* karen showed it to me and it scared me for a second cause it looked about the size of Ed's thumb and i was like 'ho no!.. Ed.. why didnt you tell us?!?!' XD

we had a dog party out back with all of the dogs...
by accidentt

random pictures?
sure  ok!

this is a lamp att my work. im rather fond of it.♥


ceiling

meat!

airport porn shop with 'arcade'

my new hightops

 a bee i caught and put on a bush with some flowers

great food

the beach

an unfinished drawing

a blimp

this guy had several squirrels sitting on him

my fly trap, harold♥

uh? a threat in the little nickle from jesus??!?

ok im done bye

so today i got to sleep in with jon
it was AWESOME XD
since july 3rd(which btw was so insane because of hte holiday and  the meat recall which the news so couteously fucked up T___T) i have been so busy and so fucking wiped
so it was nice to be able to sleep in.. and with my babe never-the-less.

oh and i won some china and stuff at the auctions :D 

today we went to look at ARs... which for those of you unfamiliar with this is an assault rifle most commonly seen carried by the us military.
We have an AK most commonly affiliated with 'terrorists' and 'sand niggers' because it is so reliable as far as being able to take a beating and i have always said its name in praise with the little speach of  'it doesnt matter if you cant shoot it.. cause in a real situation it will not jam' however it cannot shoot well at all. the acuracy is horrible my boyfriend found out while out with his dad. T___T and we cannot depend our lives on that so were looking into an AR which is actually really cool but its difficult for me to warm up to this plastic weapon. but now im totally sold!
infact we went to look at some today and found out theres a store nearby that sells parts and you can build them from scratch♥  SOOOO after i get some lolita stuff with a couple paychecks i have set asside.... im going to build myself a custom.. and oh yes... lolita AR
and for some insite here is a picture of a custom HK AR... with regular stock(the but of the gun that goes into your sholder) mine will be a collapsable one because i find it more comfortable.

like this but with a scope

i dont know how i will costomize it yet though *ponders*
but it will be a loooot of fun building it. i really enjoy building things and mechanics and stuff and this way i will get to know my gun all that much better♥
oh M4.. im sorry i was so cold to you before!

other than that ive turned one of my journals into a wedding scrabook type thing with clippings and ideas and stories and traditions just for fun and not really reflective necessarily of  the wedding i want to have. i just enjoy wedding stuff. fuck i wish there was kliensfield around here... i would totally work there.
im to picky to be a wedding planner XD ...at least helping find someone a dress i could find it easier to shut my mouth.

woo.. and ive had fun re- decorating our house and playing with all the new stuff i won in the auction.. a lot of things ....

and on a completely random not i had a dream i had a white baby deer.. it was sooo beautiful

they are my absolute most favourite animal evar.

but im hungry so im out!

 *geek out*
today was my day off and i have a huuuuuge freaking headache so ive been taking it easy and watching wedding shows on demand >_>; there needs to be a wedding channel i swear.
So i watched one of my favourite shows 'say yes to the dress'.. and man do i wish there was a klienfeild here.. i would LOOOVE to work there. i love wedding stuff ;3;
so ive been designing more wedding dresses and other crap
and i had a day dream ~o~; 
that i won the lotto (which is 43 billion btw) And i split it  between jon and i . i said im buying that house (my gorgeous dream house ;o;) and then were splitting the money and  you get to do whatever you want with your half as will i with mine. and so we had a house warming party... and all of his family and all of my family were there and then all of a sudden he called for an announcement aright outside the front of the house intfront of its beautiful gate and proposed @w@ *GEEEEK* and all my family and friend were there to see.
oh well.. a gal can dream cant she XD?

Speaking of that house i really wish i had it simply so i could grow fragrent vintage roses all around the hedges. I LOVE vintage flowers especially roses and i love how they were bred for their romantic scents and not for looks... and how they were actualy quite simple to grow. i would raise such lovely scented roses that you could smell my house from down the street♥

*sigh*
i need to pull my head out of the clouds T___T



in other news i actually got the 4th off! 
so im going to my aunt jackies house (rip) she was a wonderful woman but died on her birthday a couple years ago. and she always has huge parties for the fourth at her house and theres lots of food and fundraising and famous people and its just so much fun. they do an auction to raise money for charities and its just such a great way to spend the fourth of july.. plus you get to see all of your family. i havent been since she died..so im excited to go back♥

 man wtf was with yesterday
i left out we went to the pool early in the moring and noticed someone dumped boxes of beer in it and had to clean it
and they turned off the pumps
annnnd we go pulled over by the cops on the way into the parkinglot of california burger because we didnt have our frunt liscence plat on.. and because we had a little plastic duckhead cover on our little towing bulb thing *forgot the name of it* that was made for that but aparently  'abstucts the view'... whatever

anyhoot we also almost had to shoot a dog! ;_;.
the people at the bottom floor 5 feet away from our bottom floor right below our apartment have a huge dog... a huge dog they NEVER let out. im not joking.. not even to shit. its gotten out once before and ran for what we call 'big jack' who is a big black dog as well owned by this sweet couple from minnesota we chat with sometimes... t hey call hhim our jacks papa. and the dog ran for him and started attacking kinda.. at which point i left cause i had my dog who was wiggin out. but this time jon and i were sittin on the couch and we just hear a breaking sound and lots of snarling and screaming and barking.. @____@ big jack and his owner john were walking past the window (as yuo have to) to get to the little feild outside of our window to play with his dog like usual. and their dog jumps out the fucking window breaking the screen and the blinds nad starts attacking big jack biting the shit out of him AND john as jon is trying to protect his sweet kind dog. he even drew blood. we came outside and after they got the dog off him asked if we needed to call the cops or something. john is so sweet he said no and the owner of the other dog was just laughing about it!! >:O
im not one quick to jump about this stuff but her dog is a total menace and something needs to happen.

other t han that my cramps are killing me and i have to go to work
yay!

 uhhg >:O 
I hate psuedo intellectual liberal animal rights faggots who pretend to care but are just huge bags of dueche.
ok
so jon and i.. and our dog jack all decide that its fucking 92 or so degrees outside and its too fucking hot inside to be .. well.. inside. so we head on to a beach that allows you to play with your dogs and take ourselves down the train tracks to a spot NOT crammed with a billion skeezy highschool graduate whores and therye sir drink alot friends..
and find this perfect sandy spot whith no people around for a while (btw washington beaches tend to be nothing but barnical rock so sand is amazing) and we just toss around a ball and play in the water and get wet and cooled off and swim a bit. it was a blast and im totally sunburnt. we made sure to bring 6 full cold water bottles of fresh from an actual natural spring down the street water with us and a bowl for jack to drink from.. constantly giving him water and so forth.
the we get hungry and the tide starts to come in so we head to our new favourtie joint.. california burger.
we love this place and the people know us.. and you can get penut butter on your burger and thats just fucking weird so we get burgers and fries and a banana split. and we just finished our burger and were eating outside and we had seen the guy starting our split and were all happy and excited for our icecream treat.
jon goes to go give jack some fresh water as jack is on our car which is probably 20 feet away.. if. and we can see him perfectly inside the car from where we sit. The windows are also down far enough for him to stick his whole head out and then some but not jump and its actually cooler in the car. that and were not taking long to eat.. i think thats pretty fucking fair right? So on the way back from the car to our seat jack barks and whines at jon because he does that even when im in the car with him and jon is getting gas.. he just doenst like when jon isnt with him..cause you know.. hes a puppy...
well these older 40 younger 50 total gronala eating seattle-ites are comin into the burger place just in time to see/hear this.
when they come out therye like
"is that your dog?"
us-->"yea hes really chatty.."
"you left him in the car???"
uh yeah..we have the windows down plenty, we can see him from here, its been all of 15 mionutes and he has water in the car...we just check on him
"thats what the owners of all those dead dogs said when all their dogs died" (i dont remeber the wording all exactly.. but the way he said it made it sound like there was some sort of insane hollocaust where all these dogs died cause they were left in a car.)
hes fine.. trust me. we JUST checked on him.. were trying to have a meal.. go enjoy the weather
"my wife almost called the cops on you! youre killing your dog! We almost called the cops"
that so?
"Yes!! *insert bitch and moan*"
then do it.. call the cops (i didnt say this)
"fine lets do this!" 
at which point they walked into the smoke shop behind us and got the manager out.. and pointed it out to them and pointed us out and made him call the cops.. the cops came and im sure basically laughed in their facees and told them they had better stuff to do.. cause we saw them talk to the cops and we saw the cops leave and they never even said hi to us hahahahahahah
go fuck yourselves you duechbags.
we got back to the car after our banana split and our dog was just fine.
its ten times fucking hotter in here than it was in our car.. and they guy was saying something like "it doesnt matter if your windows are down... hot air rises and accumulates" XD!!!!!!LOL look i slept through science.. i do understand heat rises, sure...but accumulates? maybe in a non-vented area. i actually laughed out loud... i was like uhhh hellooooo it goes through the windowwwwwwwwww. X'D it was nice and cool in the car and the air well circulated cause of the breeze which had a better affect in the car than outside.
man it was so upsetting. there were lots of words exchanged i left out
but we told them to leave and they continued to harass us while we were fucking eating. i was like christ you cant even enjoy a goddamn meal anymore it was so irritating >:O!

uuuuuuuuuuugh 
ok
/bitch

its hooot :(

;_________________;
*wannnnt*

omg i found the house of my dreams the other day and i made jon drive past it last night so i could look at it ;m;
I might write it love letters everday and sit at its gate singing love songs to it and share my love with it. Im absolutely inlove with this house.
no exaggeration.. my heart actually flutters just thinking about it and i feel all anxious! That is so sad >_>..but i feel like this house is destiny you know.. like i wast meant to have it and even though there is no way i can afford it right now im supposed to try until i have it.
and its actually for sale ;w; .....for a wopping 2 million dollars. well $ 1,999,999... @~@ uhhhhg
so i took one of the flyers and the picture on the  front does it no justice so ill probably go take a pic of it later and show you all.
A litttle about it:
It is completely surrounded by like.. 14 ft hedges leaving an entrance at the front which is an antique european iron gate with floweres, and an openeing at teh side which is another gate. it has a spacious front yard with a couple trees and room for a garden right infront of the entrance to the house. 
-it has a mudroom attached to the side
-a gazebo.
-built in 1906
-5 bedroom , 3.75 bath(i know its a lot more than i need but i plan on raising a family!)
-4200sqft , .526 acre lot size
-a basement
-3 fireplacees/ family room-wood burning, bonus room and BALLROOM -gas
-yes it has a fucking ballroom(its weird cause on the ourtside it hardly looks bigenough for all of this
-jetted tubs in master and second floor bathrooms
-fully fenced
and its near the water.. like its not right on the lake but its 2 houses and a street up.. which is awesome. and its near one of my favourite parks
ohhhhh ;_; lake park manor you are the love of my life. i would give up even looking at lolita to have you.
however im going to go buy a lotto ticket instead XD my first and only time with one i had such great luck maybe i will this time too! haha *crosses fingers*
i mean becides.. this house has given me thisfeeling of absolute destiny i havent felt since i met jon.. just as absolutely consuming.. and its even for sale!! all the signs are there hahaha.. plzzzz :(


ok ok enough of me ranting about a house >_>
did i mention i bought some of those colourful gangster shoes a couple weeks ago?
theyre so badass
theryre hightops with the velcro.. ill take a picture of em later.. i need to clean.

im addicted to tumblr @_____@ i dont have one but i cant stop loooking at everyones

bonus
heres a picture of my turtle who is getting bigger!


and the cake i made for my work. they got a kick out of it♥



seacrest out!

 woo yesterday was crazy

first off went to the mall to get an Xbox360.
which btw weighs like a million lbs
then i went and bought a cute summer dress, and cute summer undies 
along with a build a wood barretta and a candle and some other junk i dont remember.
I also bought some fresh fish for dinner :] 
and i bought my first vibrator lol! its pink XD...sex stores have some  creepy shit lol... fucking creepy
oh and we went to a car show in the parkinglot d own the street.. the care of my dreams wasthere♥


so anyhoot we get home and start to set up the xbox and i start to cook as were fucking hungry
but the xbox isnt working and i set the oven on fire cause it was dirty on the bottom and the recipe called for loooots of heat haha. it was really smokey and hurt my eye.. the fish looked fine odly enough but we decided to go grab some  grub instead cause of all the smoke. >_> luckily jon was smart enough to throw baking poweder on the fire.
so we head out to fredmeyers down the street to grab something that either doesnt need cooking or can be microwaved XD and check out the electronics for an adapter or something.
We come home and try again and realize the we didnt need an adapter silly us only needed to switch the switch from HD to TV T___T
*idiot*
it was like midnigt but we decided to play it a little anyhow.
i got deadrising which ROCKs its a zombie game o'course
and jon got grand theft auto4
and i want to get rockband but its another 200 bucks and we just dropped 400 @m@

guh yea now 6 hours later im getting ready for work ;___; and i have a long ass fucking week.

I look rather scruffy lately >_>; 

i look like a boy haha. im growing my hair out though., its already a good inch and a half longer.

anyways got to go to work bye bye!

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 Jon bought the SAS survival guide yesterday. And were both reading it vigorously.  Its a military survival guid with information on what you can eat what you cant, how to hunt, how to make tools, how to tie knots distil water, survive a carcrash/plane crash, live in the woods, read clouds and just any thing you could imagine to keep yourself safe.
we have both always been into survival stuff
but it kinda seems more important than usual to have these skills

people are pretty comfortable but i have had this feeling lately that within the next ten years somethings going to happen and the happy american life will not be the same as it used to be. and if im wrong...awesome but things are going to change and id rather look crazy and be prepared than cought with my  fuckin pants down. So were just getting to know everything.. and were going to start stockin up. Were pretty satisfied with our location. We live in the top story apartment at the far end with one entrance to us being a small staircase easily fortified or cut off... also on a slight incline so any flood will go down (unfortunately) to the apartments down below infront of us. We also live within a short drive/decent walk to a natural water spring thats constantly running.. we get our water there sometimes as it is free and totally good.We live near ports, logging, woods, orchards, hunting areas, and a huge food warehouse. And of course we are farely well armed.

I just dont feel comfortable with our government and country and.. shit the world being as unstable as it ... not to mention right now at this very second theres a storm goin on with high winds and rain and blown over trees and its roughly  40-50F and snowing just a few miles east in the pass...and in the midwest its flooding likes mofo and on the eastcoast its 100F
Were calling june (here) june-uary. "/
if anyone didnt believe in global warming before.. the better now
Ive been reading about global warming/climate change since i was 11 and my grandpa gave me a bunch of popular science mags. The results of it are compltely mortifying and economy demolishing among other things.  up will be down and down will be up etc. places that were warm will be cooler and vise versa.. crops will die and starvation and disease will set in.. water levels will rise and our entire environment that weve always relied on will change
and  if(i meant when) america gets fed up and ends up going bat shit.. im suprised there isnt more rioting alread.. but people have been getting slowly wethered to get used to all the shit our government and big oil are pullin.. i dont want to be  dumb about it when everyone starts killing each other and looting and all law looses meaning and money means nothing.
i want to be ready, and while its mean to say i know a lot of people out there arent and it makes me feel better about my saftey.. i hope some of you realize that america(and even the worlds) way of life is going to change.

mans main priority in life is to survive.. and thats what i plan on doing.

/crazy rant

asside from that im freezing my ass off in my own house in june and its nasty as fuck outside.


Ive been reading world war Z lately.. im a little over halfway through it. Its reallllllly good. its about zombies. But its not your cheezy horror book. Its about outbreaks of zombies spreading through out the world and the war against them and its basically just a bunch of interviews from people all over and how they saw it and how they handled it and its amazingly good and if i didnt know better i would think it was real acounts about a real world war against the living dead. it has military accounts and how they and the government handled it.. their tactics.. people who were dumb and went north thinking the zzombies would freeze and die.. and rebuilding afterwards.
its sooooo good @w@. its right up my ally. Zombies and survival.. does it  get any better? I would recomend this book to any true zombie lover out there. the guy also has a survival zombie guide (which is acutally quite smart and accurate for a lot of situations)
and there are acutally diseases and acounts similar to zombies that have been recorded. Like the 'rage disease' pretty freakin identical to 28 days later's rage.. but i think its caused by minerals in the ground (accounts happened in 3rd world isolated villages) where people would go crazy and start mauling eveyrone and complete vilages would be distroyed inside out... but i dont recal if it was contagous.
the closest to an actual zombie i have ever heard of and seen pictures of was national geographic mag i saw in 6th grade or so. i was reading an artical that i believe was about voodoo in africa and  this man had been 'posessed' and he could cut open his stomach (and did, there were weird photos of it D: ) and he just sliced it clean open and his guts were everywhere.. however he was showing no signs of emotion.. no blinking.. no nothing no pain.. but most creepily was not really bleeding at all... he just walked around and was not dead.. but should be.. and not really bleeding.. all very similar to the mythical zombie ... all he needed now was to be grey and decayed, put up his arms and start munching on folks.
i also dont recal that one being contageous.
 but there is some weird shit out there.. like a whole village in a latin type community spontaneously combusting.. 
people have this mentality of it cant happen until it happens.. which is kinda smart but i go for it can and will happen. "/


I also t ook one of those personality tests and got rational mastermind (INTJ) but i dont think its the one everyone else has been taking.. has anyone got a link to it?
anyhoot im really tired 
so im going to go

 I made rosewater and raspberry cupcakes today for tomarrow :] 
i put the recipe on egl_cooking





mm yep

i went onto sheezyart to find my sisters page (whichi  kinda failed to find) but i havent been on there in like.. over a year.. and i noticed i had a message.. which i never got so i checked it out
and its a note from this kids mom.. :(....
Theres this guy i used to talk to a lot  a couple years ago when i was sad and down and stuff and he was always really there for me as far as the internet goes and really sweet and such. I talked to him a lot and then i lost the internet for a while and hadnt talked ot him and then gave up sheezy cause it sucks 
and i found out the poor kid got killed in a car crash :'(  I didnt really know him well or irl or anything but its really sad.. the poor kid.. and is family,. R.I.P. :[
too many young kids die.. like when my friend from columbia who i used to let wear my clothes she was so cute.. a grade or so younger than me i used to hang out with her older bother cameron.. she died in the rave shooting "/
its reallysad.

Ive been incredibly bussy and not getting any sleep at all and i think i might  kill my downstairs neighbors T__T i was almost crying because i was so tired.. theyre sooooo rude and loud. and its been really hot so we have to open our windows and shit but of course so do they and their house smells like bad curry, smelly feet and melted plastic REALLY BAD and it makes our house smell unbarably bad just like that (im sorry but what is wrong with asian.. specifically koriean and chinese.. people..why do your houses smell so fucking bad D:?!) so we have to shut our windows so we dont puke and sit in the sweltering top floor heat ToT.
I think im going to do that royal court thing on lolita_nouveau ... i dont generally do that kind of thing but it might be fun.
i still havent gotten my permit >_> i cant find the placee.. and i used the adress on the state site... and i drove around for a loong time on two different occasions. i think every city should have a big directory at the city entrance of where every state service is...

Im going to loliday.. finally my first meetup.. i dont know how long ill be staying as im not terribly social but it gives me an excuse to bake.. so im going to make rosewater and rasberry cupcakes.. assuming i can find some rosewater and candied petals..


much older men have been hitting on me a lot lately. its weird. i swear ever since i was like .. 4 ive been a magnet for men/boys who are much to old for me.

and i keep cutting myself accidentally and a lot o_0 like i cut off almost all the skin on my left pointer knuckle and it was just dripping allllll down my arm and onto the carpet and floor and all over my shirt. and then i cut my elbow just as bad. then i cut my knee and my ankle shaving..  i also ut my ring finger at work on one of hte dividers  as well as the top part of my rist by the bone.. my pinky and of cours my fucking palm.. not to mention im anemic and my blood never clots so i bleed for AGES then i got my period XD and then i just slept for an entire day cause i couldnt move i didnt have enough energy.. yay!

SEACREST OUT!

went bowling the other night with jon and had icecream (i had serbert)
there was no one there and the girl who worked there was like "BTW IS THAT A LOLITA DRESS?" and i was like "yes... BTW CAN I BUY/HAVE THESE SHOES" and she said no :( 
I love bowling shoes.

i was supposed to go to get my permit  today cause i HAVE to take my test by mid june
and i mapquested it and went ot go drive to the DOL. mapquest said turn right onto 44th.. so i did.. then it said turn left onto 200th so i did.. then it says turn left onto 52nd ave..cedar vally... so i look and theres cedar valley..but its on 50th ave.. and so i go up farther and i find a 52nd but its placee an you can only go right so we keep on going and drive around the back roads a lot to come down the second road over where it sas just 100 ft or so down that the same road 50th is also 52nd WTF MAKE UP YOUR MIND D:< 
So now that we finally found the fucking street we go up and down it to find ABSOLUTELY NOTHING 
*irritated* T____T I have to get my drivers lisence and soooooon.

Natalie and amanda might be spending the night sometime! We wanted them to come over and go bowling with us. You can play for an hour (or 2 i dont remember) get a large pizza, pop and some other garbage for 55bucks! and split between 4 people thats only like 13.75 a person. its gunna be groovy

ANYWAYS I NEED HALP (attention all compter/gaming geeks!)
I downloaded DOOM 
and of course i downloaded DOSBox and i apparently downloaded it properly
however when i open doom (after unzimping it of course) and click install that little black box only pops up for a second
MORE INFO:

Here is a picture of the folders

and here is what happens when i drag and drop install to dosbox (im not really sure how this thing even works :x)

its saying illegal command to everything
and then it says unable to delete doom_19.exe...
HELP
I jut want to play doom T____T I miss it so much!

mothers day was ok.
i worked until 4:30
bought my mom some lovely roses and a card
stopped over at her house and delivered them
drove to my dads house where we were throwing a birthday party for my grandmother who turned 75!
I bought a funny card and wrote something sweet in it and bought her some potted roses.
she was funny and awesome as usual
and for dinner we had:
ribeye steak and lobster tail
asparigus and roasted garlic nue potatoes
corn on the cob.
and for desert we had home made meringue cloud with lemon cream over the top and whipcream and rasberries.
yum! with coffee it was perfect.

yesterday was pretty groovy too.
jon and i didnt want to spend our one day a week off together at home or at the mall or something gay like that.
so we decided to go on a long drive.
i initially just planned on going straigh north and stopping anywhere that looked mildly interesting. (mainly crappy half abandoned towns)
but instead we took hwy2 and went on the amazing 2 way one lane each road east the leads through the mountains
stopping at bridges, random 'parks' and going down hidden dirt one way roads. We even got to play in the snow haha! We climbed rocks, almost got stuck, followed trains and saw dear. 
and when we were all done we ate at buzz diner some hole in the wall with an internet juke box and a total occupancy of the time of 6 including us. the waitress we assumed had just gone through a hard breakup because she kept making a list of songs on the jukebox of sad breakup-esque songs ranging from older 90's songs to courntry and  more. it was mildly amusing. We got a kick out of it.